Sudden Sweetness

"I was gushing and I knew it. I surprised myself with my eagerness to please, felt myself saying too much, explaining too much, overinvolved and overexcited in the way you are when you're a kid and you think you've found a soul mate in the new boy down the street and you feel yourself drawn by the force of the courtship and so act as you don't normally do and a lot more openly than you may even want to."
— Philip Roth (The Human Stain)

(i feel like that far too often, that sickening yearning to be liked by someone you already like very much. there is that fear that the other person can sense your enthusiasm + adoration, the girlish-boyish zeal in your eyes, and thus will be disgusted by you and your pathetic earnestness, but ahhh you can't help yourself!)